Sitting under the sky watching the sun hiding behind those marvelous mountains and waiting for the moon to take its place is a perfect scene for a romantic date.  Sounds of crickets and rustling of leaves will make the ambiance very tranquil.

A round table made of bamboo is what I want with only one candle in the middle of the table but I love to see more candles around us.  Petals of roses were also scattered around us making us the center of all.  For our meal, I preferred steak with enough garnishes.  I will choose the best rice wine instead of buying the expensive ones to match up the setting.  Intrumental background music is playing while we’re exchanging sweet thoughts.

After eating, we will dance to romantic music.  This is the time I will express all my feelings to him.  I will show how much I love him.  The moon and stars will be the witness to this overflowing love.

That moment will be magical.  There will be harmony and love will fill the air.  We will start building castles in our dreams. 

But all these were very impossible.  I will not going to have a date with the guy I love.

“Dreams are my reality, the only kind of real fantasy

Illusions are a common thing, I try to live in dreams

It seems as if it’s meant to be.

Dreams are my reality, a different kind of reality

I dream of loving in the night and loving seems alright

Although it’s only fantasy.”

These are excerpts from the song entitled “Reality” performed by Richard Sanderson.  All of these are just fantasies and these fantasies are my reality.  Sad but true.

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Every man has his own special dream. When you achieved it,gratification follows. That was what I felt last November 2008. I was invited by my alma matter to sing the Philippine National Anthem for the opening of their intramurals. Even though it was just a small event, I felt really proud because I was the one chosen. Besides,it was not just an ordinary song. This was the time that I have been waiting for. I do thank the Lord for that opportunity. He answered my prayer.

Preparation was the next thing I did. I practiced everyday even when I’m taking a shower. All I’m thinking was to please everyone. I don’t want to get embarrass. I disciplined myself by not drinking cold water and not eating sweets. I took enough rests so that my voice will not get into bad condition.

When that day arrives,that was the time I felt nervous. I was thinking of the comments that people might told me. But that idea washed out when I thought of my goals. Because of that,my performance was an impact to them. I delivered the song very well and it made me so happy. All I can say during that time was:”I did it.” I made my mentors very much proud.

That was the best thing that happened to me last 2008. And if I were to die tonight,I have a smile on my face because that time I talked to God and I say “God,mission accomplished.”

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This negative attitude started when I was 3rd year highschool. I fell in love with the wrong person. I loved him so much. When he told me that it was time for us to go on separate ways,I cried. It was so hard for me to accept his decision that is why I decided to attempt suicide. If others will going to ask me how many times I have tried it, 6 times to be exact.

As for now,whenever I have problems,I just cry and ask the Lord “why me?’ The thought of killing myself still runs through my mind but this time I can control it. I realized how beautiful life was. That attitude is now a ghost of me. Still hunts me but I manage to face the dark side of me.

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The best gift I had ever received was a gold necklace with a pendant of Jesus’ face and Mother Mary on the other side. It was given to me by my mother. I considered it as the best because for me it symbolizes guidance. I’m sure my mom wants me to be safe against any harm. Another thing,it is made of genuine gold. Unluckily,one of my friend way back when I was in third year highschool borrowed it. I forgot to get it back from her that day that’s why I decided to claim it the next day. But my friend told me the next day that it was lost. I got so mad at her. But what can I do? It was already lost.

As for the worst gift,actually,I don’t have one. I consider all my gifts as treasures. For me, all of them were precious. I don’t care it that gift is cheaper than the others or not. What matters to me is the effort of the person. To appreciate a gift given to you is a big thing.

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